Office politic sucks!
Office politic; usually it happens in a big company/organization. But believe it or not, in a small company but with a few numbers of bosses, office politic does happen to. Seriously, this is another ground people used as their resignation reason (tp tak arr tulis dlm surat berenti tu. Simpan dlm hati je. Atas surat tu ckp arr dapat peluang keje lebih baik).
The issues now are;
i) Are you tough enough to endure office politic when you happen to be one of the targets?
ii) How long do you think u can resist the temptation to fight back or are you going to surrender to the situation?
iii) What are you action? Will you sit there and un-willingly let them bully you, or are you going to revert whatever they are doing to them and join their club of bullies; or are you going to confront them and demand for your right as human being to be treated nicely?
Yes, these sound a bit too serious, I know I know. But it happens to me twice.
Situation 1
There were 4 of us in a team; – 1 Project Director, 1 Project Manager, 1 Project Engineer and 1 Quantity Surveyor (for the fact that there was only 1 technical and operation team in the company). BUT we have five bosses. The bosses outnumbered the staff. So by now you can at least imagine the problem we were facing at that time. 5 kepala bos besau yg belagak giler mcm bos yg semestinya ada lain2 pendapat, huh!!!! But still I remained with the company for over 2 years. WHY? U may ask. Because I love the people I was working with. I have a very good project director. He was my mentor and he was a very good (damn good actually) leader. I learned a lot from him. Seriously, if he happens to form one small construction company, I want to be the first person to apply working there. I learned an awfully lot of knowledge and throughout the 2 year (I started from scratch, nil, zero) my project director managed to guide me to be a good quantity surveyor (in my league arr…).
So revert back to the actual problem, the bosses were all politikus…heheh.dato’, datok dan atuk. All of them hold a position in Selangor state government or district. No wonder all their project was direct nego project. So, org politik yg jd bos utk satu syarikat construction, pemikiran mereka is to serve their politic party to whom they are member with so that they can be promoted to a higher level of their party, dgn pantasnya ( kipas bontot bos utk naik cepat). This is a REAL POLITIK opis. Heheh..sbb org yg menjadi onar politik opis ini adalah ORG POLITIK. Seriously, if you unable to manage your business and tend to involve to much POLITIK in your business, your business sooner or later, akan kapushhhh, hancur, gagal, bankrap. Mana tidak, dpt je duit, duit tuh ko guna utk peribadi ko, utk kempen politik ko, utk kawin lain, utk beli merc baru, etc etc….In the end, org yg sengsara adalah staff2 kau, sub-kon kecik yg buat kije utk ko dan org2 bawahan yg keje bermati2an utk dptkan duit utk ko.
Arghhh!! The peak of the whole situation was, after my project director and I managed to win the company another construction project, datok dato’ dan atuk yg pandai lg bijaksana tu pergi total sub projek tuh kat org lain. Huh!!!!….sgt sedey ok masa tu..Then I decided to leave. Sbnrnya sblm saya berenti, my project manager and project engineer dah berenti dulu. I stay for the sake of my project director. I respect him too much, and I try to bear the problem because I understand his situation at that moment. Encik (you know who you are), if you read this, I want you to know that I will be forever thankful to you for everything that you have taught me. Believe me, U are one good bos. I Miss YOU Encik Bos.
Situation 2
I joined this company after two months of being un-employed. Hehehehe. This company is a well known company in Malaysia. Very establish I tell u (kononnya arr). I joined as their site team. I am on contract basis, for two years. Sbnrnya sblm start kije kat sini, I received quite a number of offers (which I regret of turned the offer down. Kalo ku tau begini jdnya, jgn harap aku nak kije sini). I received my appointment letter quite late, after one week of joining. Masa tuh tawaran2 kije lain sudah ku tolak, dgn konfidennya sbb harap apa yg saya mintak sblm kije sini akan di fulfill laa. Tapi it turn out to be BAD (Worse lg sesuai rasanya). When I first received the appointment letter, hati mmg rasa tak best. So I decided to show the letter to my ayah. And my ayah strongly disagrees with the contents of the letter. He is the one who discourage me from accepting the offer, bg ayah, dia kata melihat pada appointment letter itu, kompeni tmpt keje saya skrg ‘pemeras’. Tp being me, saya degil. Saya pikir, I should give this job a try. Mana tau, lama2 nanti ok keje sini.
So, I immediately embark with my journey with the new company. I am with the contract department. Majority staf kat situ lelaki. Masa tuh ada sorang je married staff perempuan. The clerks and me lom kawin lg. I make new friends. Saya belajar byk benda baru since this is the first time saya buat projek hiway. Dulu sblm saya kije sini, way back masa kompeni lama, my wise projek director pernah pesan kat saya, “annur, working with big organization is totally different from working with ****. U r going to meet with a lot of people with a lot of personality. There will be people yg envy you. So beware with office politic because the situation u r about to face is nothing similar to what u have experienced in ****”. And I should agree with you now encik. U R Totally RIGHT. Totally 100% right.
My main problem working here adalah; *tuuuttttttt*. yes masalahnya dtg dr *ttuuuuuuttttt*. and they are *tuuuutttttttt*. Yes. Seriously. You know who you are. Saya tak pernah dengki2 pd kamu dan kamu. Saya tak pernah nak masuk campur dan jaga tepi kain dan seluar kamu. Saya hanya mau keje dlm suasana aman dan harmoni. Saya tak de buat salah pd kamu dan kamu. Saya tak pernah nak amik tau atau pertikaikan apa jua tindakan kamu. Saya peduli apa kalo kamu dtg lewat, or kalau kamu ‘ilang’ sekejap time opis hour. Saya takmau tau dan tak ingin tau. Saya tak pernah pertikaikan ketidakhadiran kamu. Bukan annuryani namanya utk amik tau sebab musabab kenapa kamu nak cuti atau mc. I trust that whatever action u r taking, It has nothing to do with me. IT IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS. Tp kenapakah kamu kamu semua sibuk dgn hal dan kehidupan saya. SUKA HATI SAYA LA BILA SAYA NAK CUTI, BILA SAYA NAK ‘ILANGKAN DIRI DR OPIS’, DGN SAPA SAYA NAK BAIK OR BUAT BAIK, BRAPA LAMA SAYA NAK CUTI, APA SEBAB SAYA TAK DTG OPIS. SEMUA TUH TAKDE KAITAN DGN HIDUP KAMU DAN KAMU. Jd kenapa kah kamu semua membuang masa dan tenaga utk sibuk2kan diri kamu ttg hal saya. Saya rasa byk lg benda kamu nak kena jaga your family for instance. Tolong arrrr…SAYA TAK PERNAH MENYUSAHKAN HIDUP KAMu. SAYA TAK PERNAH DENGKI DGN KAMU KAMU ITUUUU. KENAPAKAH KAMU SUKA CKP2 DIBELAKANG (padahal opis tuh bukan besau sgt…) KETAHUILAH KAMU DAN KAMU, APA JE YG KAMU KAMU CKP DI BELAKANG SAYA, SAYA TAU. Aiyooooo. Saya bukan bodo. Saya bukan pekak. Saya bukan tak Nampak. CUMANYA, being me, SAYA CUBA NAK TOLERATE DGN KAMU. MUNGKIN KAMU KAMU ADA BYK MASALAH. Tolong arrr…….tolong jgn dengki dgn saya. Kalo tak puas hati sila ckp depan2. Dlm korang sedar atau tak, korang tak porak perandakan suasana harmoni kat opis ni. DAN SERIOUSLY, RAMAI ORG TAK SUKA DGN KAMU DAN KAMU ITU. SEMUANYA SBB PERANGAI KAMU. For god sake, we r all trying to work here. Mau kije cari rezeki halal. Kitaorg dah cukup sengsara dgn gaji ciput dan waktu keje yg tak masuk akal. TOLONG JGN TAMBAH KEPADA PERMASALAHAN INI.
Huh!!!!….ini adalah cara utk saya meluahkan perasaan ketikpuasan hati saya. Being annuryani, saya tak sampai hati nak bgtau kamu depan2. Sbbnya, saya masih ada rasa hormat pd kamu dan kamu.
Ok laa…memandangkan saya mc hari ni..or for your info, saya mmg sgt suka hati bila dpt sakit. Saya suka mc. Apak ngan mak saya ada share kat klinik yg bg saya mc. Well u know me. Saya suka ampu bos. Saya mmg suka ponteng keje. Mmg tujuan utama saya nak menyusahkan hidup kamu dan sekalian di opis. Saya dah ada perancangan jangka masa pjg dlm diari ttg bila waktu saya rasa nak mc or sakit. Jadi sila arr kamu bergosip2 sesama kamu.
Sekian. TerimaKasih
~love and hate, annur~
What is one thing that can make you smile sheepishly, give you a warm pleasant feeling, give you a sudden rush of overwhelming happiness, and set yourself in one of those peaceful state of mind? What? What? Tell me tell me for I have find that ‘one thing’ yesterday. That ‘one particular thing’ that have made my day. Out of sudden, I feel joy and happiness, I feel so lucky and so full of appreciation to ALLAH S.W.T for giving me this chances, up until now, to enjoy life. Hhmmm..U must be wondering, what is that ‘one particular special thing’ that helps keep me human, and sane. Yes!! Memories…all those good memories that more often than not make u wish that u can travel back time and went through it all over again. I have had my happiest moment, so many times throughout the 27 years of my life, which sadly, as time goes by, only the photos keeps the memories alive. It is true when you say; time is keep freeze through photography. You will always feel young, and fragile, and vulnerable and most definitely make you remember things that you almost forgotten, through good photos in your keeping. I will definitely share mine today, for I am very proud of each and every moment I had, and I believe many of my friend out there will feel the same too. Guarantee punya laa….guys lets travel back through time…way back to our ‘years’ in secondary school. Hehehe..Some of you will laugh, some of you will be embarrassed, but all of you will REMEMBER….The journey begin now…….
The class of 4 & 5 sains iltizam…guys, how r u doing now?? wer r u my dear friend??
heheheh. remember this..our ‘drama’. we won 2nd place ok….
Guys…u remember ‘our time’. Those for me were the happiest two years of my life. Seriously. Looking back at those lovely photos, I just wish I can turn back time and if I have that opportunity, I will make good of all the hours I wasted, not appreciating and take for granted. I MISS U GUYS TERRIBLY. Huhuhuhu. I can never find any other friends like you guys. Savasna Kaur, Wafi, Shahrul, Amru, Hazri, Bokhari, Wong Loke Meng, Soraya, Fathihatul, Tan Kean Poh, to name a few…Almost all my classmates are somebody nowadays. They are very successful in their life now. Some of them are married; some of them even have kids. Guys we should do a reunion or something, a meet up perhaps. Do contact me if you happen to read my blogs. Email me at annur_yanie@yahoo.com. My yahoo messenger is always on. There is a lot of catching up to do. We can share pictures and talk about those good old days.
It is very true when one say that, good friends are very hard to find. Even when I was in university, I find it very hard to find even one friend that can match you guys. I realised that I have taken my friend for granted. I take the penalty now. I MISS YOU GUYS SERIOUSLY. Thank you friends for those wonderful time together. U guys’ rock!!!..heheheheh….5 sains iltizam was the bestest best class ever..hehehehehehhe.
U will forever be close to my heart.
~love, annur~
salam,
hhmm..today i would like to write on the issue of ideal body weight.
actually, i used to be underweight (even now, some of my friends and relatives ckp..(anoi ni kurus sgt laa’..’bila arr ko nak gemuk nor?’.bla bla bla..). Dolu dolu, dgn ketinggian 1.60m, saya nya berat hanyala 40kg – 42kg…kurus ok. masa tuh suar jean levi’s size 24 pon longgar. huh. sgt sgt tak seksi.
sbnr2nya saya masa skola takde arr kurus sgt..slender, petite, slim but not skeleton thin. ntah napa (tau sbbnya, tp let by gone be by gone..takmau ungkit citer lama..history..)..tetiba satu masa tuh saya mengurus..hhmmmm..no matter how i denied it, saya masih annuryani yg kurus. mungkin ketensenan itu menambah burukkan lg keadaan kekurusan saya..huhuhuuhuh
seriously i am not a big eater..saya lapau, saya mkn sikit aje..menurut kata doktor malek, perut saya hanya sebesau segenggam penumbuk tgn saya yg comei ini. tu pasal saya tak byk makan (alasan)…so lepas abis degree, saya keja kat kedai kek di shah alam mall. kije kejap je. adalah satu kisah di kedai kek tuh yg membuatkan saya bertekad (semangat kobar2 tu…) utk menambahkan berat badan. di satu hari di bulan posa, saya keja shift malam. ada laa satu budak pompuan kecik (agak2 umur 8-9 tahun). dia sandau kat dinding tepi kaunter. lama dia pandang saya.. then tetiba dgn mulut lasernya (tak insuran betul..mmg menyumpah giler dlm hati masa tuh..kecik je aku nampak budak tu..nasib anak org..kalo adik sendiri mmg dah kena smack down..) dak pompuan tuh berkata, ‘akak ni kurus giler arr..eeeeee..tgk baju tshirt dia pakai tuh..besau sgt..bdn kurus baju besau’…
at that moment i was like…speechless..masih kontrol senyum tp dlm hati…&*^%&&* tuuuuutttttt punya budak…&&^%$((*&^ tuuuuuuuttttttttt!!!!…..huh, tuh laaa peak nya….that’s it…i have enough of all these bad comment…i have to do something…
sblm2 ni saya ada gak try susu weight gain..tp dah la nak mengamalkan minumnya seksa, naiknya setakat 0.5kg je sebulan..tak berbaloi…so days after that, when i had my off day, saya round pkns cr ubat..saya dgn penuh tekad, selamba n muka tak malunya gi satu kedai jual ubat tu n tanya..‘kak, ada tak ubat nak tambah selera makan?’….balas kakak kedai tu…‘ooooo…ada…adik nak satu set ke?’
huh!! pucuk dicita ulam mendatang..saya pun beli…saya amik ikut aturannya..kesan awal ubat itu sgt kuat ok..serius..sgt kuat..at least for the first 2 weeks, badan akan jd sgt lemah…ngantuk tahap dewa2…sampai satu stage tuh saya kena amik off day sbb tak larat kije kat kedai kek tu….
tp..jeng jeng jeng…..masuk minggu ke3….mcm ada jin dlm badan saya..every 2-3 hours saya kena makan..mkn dgn byknya laks tuh…suprisingly, sblm ni saya slalu mkn tak abis….tp masa tuh saya mkn licin..tak bersisa (tinggal tulang2 ajer)…..
n after one month..i gained weight. tak timbang lg masa tu..tp nak tau mcm mana saya leh perasan…suar jeans saya ketat..semua baju2 kecik n suar2 kecik ketat….perut roi…hehehehehheh…n yg plg penting, duit gaji saya abis beli mknan shj…
incredibly, i gained soo much weight that masa tuh berat saya melonjak naik jd 49kg….49kg ok…..hahahahahahhaaha….pipi saya jd tembam…lengan saya berisi…perut saya lg arr jgn citer..kami sekeluarga ni jenis flat stomach..so mmg obvious sgt laa masa tuh perut saya roi@buncit sket…heheheee
kemuncak kegemukan saya….suar jeans kesayangan saya koyak kat lutut masa saya tgh bongkok…can u imagine it..berat bdn naik sampai suar jean terkoyak..mcm hulk dah masa tu..hehehhe…masuk kedai levi’s ingat nak beli jean..suar size 27 pon tak lepas kat punggung…masa tuh mmg in denial over own body weight..saya mati2 kata suar tuh yg tak bgs…sbb my size shouldn’t exceed 26 for waist…
i stop taking that ubat….bukan berenti terus..tp selang2kan hari…say every 3 days saya br amik ubat tuh semula….then one day i had to stop…
sbbnya, a day before hari pertunangan saya, saya try arr baju tunang (beli 3 days before hari tunang..regenya nak tau brapa?….heheh…rm80 ajer…) depan ayah saya…tetiba..dgn muka tak teruja..tak senyum sket pun, ayah paling kat mak n ckp…‘anor ni dah gemuk ker?..apasal abg tgk bdn dia dah berisi..’
masa tuh i was like owwwhhhowwwhh!!! bahaya ni…ayah membebel..ayah kata muka saya dah tembam…bdn dah gemuk (ayah saya sampai umur 53 tahun perut nya masih maintain..ayah health concious. mungkin sbb belah family ayah ada keturunan high kolestrol..that explain napa dia tak suka anak2 dia gemuk..)…nak memburukkan keadaan lg, mak laks bocorkan rahsia yg saya amik ubat nak tambah selera mkn…huh…..tamatla riwayat ubat2 itu..ayah warning…dgn penuh sinikal nya, ‘ayah tak suka anor gemuk..!!!’..and that’s that…..
so i stop taking that medicine. resultnya, berat turun sket…to between 45-47kg….fluactuate..heheheh..mcm pasaran saham…ada turun naik nya..hehehehh…lucky me ubat tuh takde bad side effect…mcm breakout, pimples ker….cumanya ada skali tuh saya sakit pinggang sgt2…tp lepas gi urut dah ok…..
so kesimpulannya, berat bdn saya adalah stabil skrg..pd ketinggian 1.60m, berat saya range between 46-47kg…n i wear jeans size 26…cuma kdg2 mungkin sbb rasa takut tak dpt maintain berat ni, saya still semunyik2 amik ubat tu..like once a week ke….hhhmmmm…
mak ada ckp..even ayah pon ckp cenggitu..‘ko takyah arr amik2 ubat nak tambah berat ke tambah selera ke. nanti lepas kawin ko tgk arr. berat mesti naik punya.’..huhuuh..insaf kejap..
so presenting me masa gemuk..hhahahahahahahahahaha
look at my chubby cheeks…hehheheheh..saya rasa chumel sgt masa tu
huhu…..can’t believe it is me….
dan ini pula saya skrg……
hahahahha…kesimpulannya kawan2ku sekalian..berat bdn memainkan peranan yg penting untuk tahap keyakinan diri seseorg..i believe that, when u r happy with yourself, u carry yourself better. u have higher confident n you carry yourself well with other….seriously. i speak from experiences ok…..
been there, done that…n now i am happy with myself….insyaAllah…
~love, annur~
salam,
as promised, inilah hasil ‘tangkapan’ brg2 CHANEL saya….heheheheh…
tadaa!!!….siap ada tanda harga tuh yg tak tahan..hehehhe
CHANEL NO. 5 body mist n body lotion
CHANEL PRECISION set
CHANEL make up set….set ke?..beli asing2 jdkan satu set..lalallala
bahaya betul clearance sale or warehouse sale yg ada di luar sana itu..sgt sgt bahaya….tokey kapal pun leh jatuh miskin cenggini..(ekspresi menyesal….smbl lompat2 gembira dlm hati..heheheh..)
puas betul…memang betul sgt2 la org kata, retail terapi tuh satu terapi yg berkesan utk org yg tensen (padahal kalo ikutkan, boleh jd bertambah tensen bila tgk balance akaun bank or bil kedit kad..heheheheh…but still, it works for me..)
ok laaa…..till the next good bargain sale….tata
~love, annur
lalala…guess what?? hehehe..cepat arr teka…i give you five seconds….
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something…just made my day today…actually 2 things…hohohohoho (santa claus gelak kecik2 sbb tak larat..posa)…wanna know what they are???…heheheh…taknak tau pon saya nak bgtau jugak….
aiseh…takleh trasnfer gambau dr handphone ke pc laaa….wayar takde, card reader takde..takpe takpe..biau saspen sket…
pengajaran utk hari ini….when u feel down, sad, gloomy dan perkataan2 yg seerti dgnnya, express it out. luahkan…perhaps, just perhaps, u will feel better…i did just that this morning, and alhamdulillah, things started to go well for me…seriously, sgt cepat ok efeknya…
while surfing through the web this morning (lepas saya karang cerita sedey idop saya ni..), i stumbled upon a very very very interesting, catchy advert..CHANEL CLEARENCE SALE….lalalalalala…interesting kan??..and today happen to be the last day…and summore, it is a private kind of sale (maksudnya tak ramai org tau, so maksudnya lagi tak sesak….and semestinya brg2 jualannya masih banyak…LOL…happy happy happy)..
huh!!! masa tuh perasaan saya ialah…..‘like i care kalo bos besau saya marah…i want to go to this sale..sgt sgt nak pergi…”..then saya pon pergilah….’awu’ yg drive keta. amazingly sepanjang perjalanan ke jln sultan ismail itewww, yg berada kat tengah2 KL tu..yg selalu jem tiap2 hari tu….LANGSUNG TAK JEM….perjalanan sgt laa smooth….huhuhu..petanda baik tu…
mmg betul, sampai je kat situ, org tak ramai. boleh arr bilang ngan jari kaki dan tangan campur dua2..heheheh..oh oh..saya tetiba tak tau nak beli apa..sgt teruja ok…rasa mcm nak pitam sbb terlalu gembira…semua saya nak….dan hasilnya..jeng jeng jeng…(rabak gak laa duit hari ni..nasib baik bulan posa..kalo tak, alamatnya makan meggi ngan roti cecah air je arr tiap hari) ..gambau akan di post kemudian yer…kesimpulannya ada la dekat 13 barang saya beli…saya beli set penjagaan kulit (bear in mind, CHANEL ok.hheheh..riak sket)..palette lipstik and palette lip gloss..eye shadow, bedak kompak n refill..moisturizing mist CHANEL No. 5 and lotion…summore summore..tuh ajer…heheheheh..I AM ONE HAPPY GIRL…lalallalala
oh sblm terlupa, awu ckp, bw saya ke KL ni mcm bw raja2…jalan pergi n jalan balik langsung tak jem…diulangi..LANGSUNG TAK JEM…well..ehem ehem..heheheh..that is what i call luck babeh..(ALHAMDULILLAH….ONE GOOD RETAIL THERAPHY I TELL U…)
pastu sampai opis…wat kije sket sket…tetiba kring kring…handphone berbunyik..tunang saya call…(smlm br lepas gaduh…saya tak bgtau dia lg saya gi soping td…abe jgn marah k, bulan posa tak baik marah2..)
abe: nor, nor pakai suar jeans saiz brapa yer?
anor: hhmm…saiz tak sure laaa. posa ni badan turun…
abe: agak2…
anor: abe nak wat apa?
abe: pojie kat wangsa maju ni…kat kedai suar jeans….nor pakai saiz brapa?
anor:….25 kot…
abe: ish..mustahil laaa…pojie rasa nor pakai saiz 26 (aheheheh…)
anor: ye kot 26..takpe kalo besau anor kecikkan…abe beli suar jeans apa tu?
abe:..nanti nor tgk arr..
anor: brapa hinggit?..anor takde duit ni (bg hint sket …dgn harapan abe belanja…sbnrnya abe tak marah anor abiskan duit pun dah cukup..heheheheh)
abe: ala..nor tgk je arr nanti…
anor: ok..abe, blk awal k..nanti ptg dtg umah…(smbl senyum sipu sipu….jerit yippie yippie dlm hati…)
abe: ok.
tuuut tuuut tuuut..tamatla satu perbualan yg menggembirakan..hehehehhe…that are those two things that made my day…today…lalalalallalalalala….
anyway, i will try to tackle whatever problem i have..one by one….sket sket…GOD, GIVE ME STRENGTH…FOR I REALLY REALLY NEED THAT IN MY LIFE RITE NOW….AMIN…
thanks to awu…thanks to abe (i lebiu)….
~love, annur~
(p.s: saya akan post gambau2 hasil tangkapan saya hari ini nanti2 k…heheheheh)
salam,
i am bit down lately. don’t know why. it seems like everything frustrating me. i am confuse, undecisive, moody, sad, angry….and all the negative feelings. aiyooooo….please god, help me. i am not happy at the moment. hhmmm..with what u may ask..that’s the problem. i can not excatly find something specific to blame this problem on.
ok. people often said, when u r unhappy, or uncertain, or lost, it is best if u express (jerit ke, nangis ke, tulis ke, cerita kat org lain ke, tido ke, gi bercuti ke…etc etc) it in a way that may somehow or rather relieve u from your problem or perhaps cheer u a bit. so, what i’ll do now is to list down ( yes, i opt to write it down. usually shopping will do fine for me, but it is for temporary…i am looking for a permanent effect) whatever that i think is illegally occupying my mind, my feeling, inside me….that perhaps is the cause for my sadness, unhappiness, moodiness…..ok, let see…the lists are as follows:-
- i am not happy with where i am working right now..yes! the fact that i have to work 6 days a week stressed me out (read me out loud ok…kije 6 hari seminggu, sabtu kije full day. sebulan hanya satu saturday off..it SUCK!!). at first i try to force myself to enjoy working here. but, as days gone by, i find myself change…ntah napa tetiba diri ni jd mengong..jd budus..jd tak efisen..arghhhh!! saya slalu tensen (though my colleagues are among the best!! ‘awu’ is by best friend..those girls-you-know-who-you-are are my great helper, and my bos is a very good story teller and a good mentor). maybe it is because i am not satisfied with my contract, my salary, my working days…GGRRRRRRR!!! saya bukan nak jd org yg tak bersyukur. yes, people can say that, ‘u should be thankful that at least u have a job’…tapi, ntah laa..i don’t want to look too defensive..ni bukan tmpt saya nak mendefend diri sendiri..ni tmpt saya nak luahkan..hhhmmmmmmmmmm..ntahlaa…GOD, I PRAY FOR YOU, I CRIED OUT LOUD IN MY HEART…AKU HANYA HARAPKAN KEREDHAAN DRMU YA ALLAH..JIKA BENAR KERJA INI ADALAH REZEKIKU DRMU, KAU PERMUDAHKAN LAA SEGALA URUSAN PEKERJAAN KU…TP JIKA REZEKI KU TELAH DITAKDIRKAN DI TEMPAT LAIN, KAU PERMUDAHKAN LA URUSANKU UTK MEMPEROLEH PEKERJAAN YG LEBIH BAIK…AMIN…..
- saya bukan laa jenis org yg cepat give up. saya jenis nya org yg akan divert..yes, i choose to divert to another things when i find that particular thing or problem sgt membuntukan dan menggangu idop saya. i choosed to deal with it later…bukan saya lupa..tp temporarily divert it. hhmmmm. but in this particular case, no matter how i try to divert it, saya masih gagal…i am stuck!! ok, the work experiences here, i admit, i learn a totally new things that will definately enhance my work resume. but, i am not happy. and that’s that.
- seriously, my another fear is..skrg umur saya sudah 27 tahun. saya menjadi tunangan org on the 12 May 2007. so to date, it has been a year plus. tp saya masih takde seru utk end it to marriage. i fear marriage. maybe sbb saya belum bersedia. maybe sebab banyak lg cita2 saya belum tercapai. it is not that i have problem with my fiancee or anything. it is all me. arrgh!!! saya sudah mula menjadi bual bicara sedara mara, “noi, kenapa ko tak kawin2 lg?”, “apo anak ko ni dah (my mum) tunang lamo bonar?..”…ggrrrr!!! at the moment semua cakap2 itewww tak masuk ke dalam sistem badan saya. tp kata2 org ni mcm racun, it seep through your mind, little by little..and suddenly, kabooommm!!! your blood goes upstairs…seriously, saya takut nak kawin for the fact, one and only reason, i am not ready. saya mau langkah kanan lepas kahwin. mean to say, i prefer before marriage, for me to own a house. saya mau kawin bila saya rasa stabil, financially, emotionally, physically (i think i am too thin laaa….tak lawa pakai baju kawin nanti..ahakss!)…adakah org akan paham saya??..there will come one day, where my parents akan tanya, ‘bila ko nak kawin sbnrnya ni nor? ayah/mak tak suka ko tunang lama2..”. and to answer that, i am speechless. seriously i don’t have the answer right now. mungkin nanti…bila terbuka pintu hati, bila seru dah sampai..till then, i am not sure.
- i can’t go shopping. i only have sunday to rest. masa tuh la saya nak kena beli brg dapur, hantar kereta2 kat umah tuh gi cuci, etc etc….bila masanya saya nak splurge myself with shopping..dah berzaman saya tak gi sunway pyramid…pavillion jejak kaki pon tak pernah..mid valley apakan lg…(shah alam is one peaceful town, i admit that. tp kami org2 shah alam ni kekurangan tmpt utk bersoping. we should have one big shopping mall here. hear me hear me datok khalid…we shah alam’s citizen need one good, superb, shopping complexs..mcm subang parade pon jd arr..)..i need new handbag…(if your refer to my previous post, misi saya utk paw bos besau handbag gagal..GAGAL..)..and new shoes, new clothes, new pants…new everything…I NEED TO GO SHOPPING……..
- i really seriously need a holiday. SERIOUSLY. duit tabung kat umah tuh dah memaggil manggil. (saya ada 3 tabung botol susu yg saya save utk tujuan pergi bercuti..heheheheh). tapi cuti saya tinggal 1 hari utk raya. kalo nak amik lebey alamatnya kena amik unpaid. kalo nak sampai bulan doblas, saya ada lebihan 2 hari cuti. KOMPENI TMPT SAYA KERJA NI KEDEKUT CUTI. BOS BESAU SAYA TAK BEST LANGSUNG….SSP = suka suka potong, sangat suka peras, suck suck ptuiiiiii!!!!!
huh!!….i need some sleep right now. i am tired. bukan penat badan. just tired.
~sad, annur~
hehe…chumel giler tak hingat..serius…hehe..enjoice..
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slamat berpuasa….lama betul rasanya tak post ceritera ceriteri kat blog ni..hhmm..it just, mcm dlm construction, life is fluctuating unstably…woobly….macam pasaran bursa saham malaysia….indeks komposit jatuh terduduk, terbaring, tergolek….guling2 mcm tenggiling…
i promise you you and you…and most importantly myself, i will update this blog….just for the sake of myself…simple pleasure…
so sebagai permulaan…enjoy the video ok..sgt sgt sgt cute..serius..tak tipu….kuroneko no tango tango tango…meowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww