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So, I was off from work yesterday due to two reasons. One of the reason was pre-initiated but another came unexpectedly rather disgusting. Euuuwwww. Let this daily diary elaborate more on the events.

Monday Diary

Public holiday for Deepavali. Yippee!! (We Malaysian tend to celebrate every celebration regardless of our race…You agree with me or not? All to one and only reason, the most awaited holiday that comes along with all those celebration. Hahahaha). I was so happy for the reason that I can sleep late and wake up at noon the next day. But unfortunately that never happen. Sigh!

We, the ‘penduduk’ of jalan Platinum 7/44’ have had our fire-crackers nightmare for two nights in a row. It happened to be that one of our neighbors is an Indian. Immediately, once the  clock strike midnight of the 27^th October 2008, our Indian neighbor starts firing out all types of fire crackers, non-stop for nearly half an hour (or more I think, I can’t think straight yet again set the actual timing because of all the noises). The other neighbors, I think, can’t do much apart from swearing at them from their safe comfort bedroom. Hahahahhaha. Some of the neighbors I saw (I peep through my mum bedroom window) did came out from their house, but they can only watched the pretty spectacular fireworks from their gate wearing their comfy pajamas longing for the Indian neighbor to stop firing other firecrackers after another. Sigh!!

But what the heck!! Do some may think the Indian neighbor should be considerate and think about the other neighbors feeling, Deepavali, like other celebration, Chinese new year, Hari Raya or even Christmas only come once a year. So if you ask me, what the heck. You continue play your firecrackers babeh cause that was the exact same thing I did the night before Hari Raya and the night after that and night after the other night, playing fire crackers and trying to compete with other villages of who can fire the loudest and most amazing spectacular fire works ever. HAHAHAHAHA. Perghh!! Konon considerate giler. Tp kalo korang ulang main setiap malam sampai berjam2 ada yang kena sumpah seranah free pulak. Ahakss!!

Tuesday Diary

The Client for the project I am working on at the moment held their Open House. All those that involved in the project were invited. My colleagues and I arrived quite early because when I reached the ‘kambing golek stall’ (grill lamb), I was the only person queuing for the ‘oh-I-am-so-tasty-grill-lamb’. Without further hesitation, I took a plate full of sliced grill lamb and poured a rich creamy bbq sauce on top of it. Huh!! So yummy I tell you that I ate another round of it, all by myself. Then I had my sate and tauhu bakar. I am so stuffed that I can barely walk to the car after that.

But once I reached the office, the symptoms started showing out. I felt a little bit dizzy. But I thought it was maybe because I am too stuffed. Once I reached home, I felt a bit tired, more tired than usual, but still I can push myself to clean the toilet. Once the sun set, I had this terrible stomach-ache that I have to rush to toilet and stayed there for nearly half an hour. Euuuwwww. Diarrhea strike. I religiously attend to the toilet and ‘comfortably’ sat on the toilet bowl for another 5 times that night. By ten o clock I was so tired and worn out that I had to get kak ana (our maid) to give me a head and body massages. But that still not enough. My body sore. With an upah of Rm10, I managed to force my sister to give me a foot massage.

I was restless, my stomach ache terribly. I can barely stand. That was the worst ever diarrhea attack I ever had. After pushing myself to consume the yucky medicine, I slept unsoundly, with my aching stomach and my sore body, awaking every half an hour. At 5.30 I felt so uncomfortable that I have to rush to the toilet, and there went all the food and every other thing in my stomach. I puked and puked and puke. It was so gross, I felt like I want to puke by the look of my own puke. Gross Big Time!!! I am so tired and it all happened on the day that I was supposed to report duty at JKR. Arggghhh!!!!

I WILL NEVER EAT GRILL LAMB OR ANYTHING TO DO WITH LAMB after this!! Just by the sight of lamb or lamb related thingy will make me PUKE. I had a TERRIBLE TUESDAY-OPEN HOUSE-FOOD-LAMB GRILL-POISONING!!! SAYA TAK SUKA KAMBING DAN APA2 YG SEANGKATAN DGNNYA. SILA JGN CUBA TRICK SAYA DGN APA2 YG KEKAMBINGAN ok!!!!

Wednesday Diary

I started the day by puking. GROSS BIG TIME!! I can barely sleep the other night. Off all day, I had to be sick on the first day of me reporting duty at my new workplace. Sigh!!

Alas, I have to push myself because my attendance for this day is VERY IMPORTANT. Luckily I had this friend of mine to drive me all the way to Kuala Lumpur. When they said that I have to report duty, what came into my mind is me having to queue and mark my attendance in the attendance sheet and fill up all type of forms.

Yes I have to queue, and yeas I have to fill up a lot and lot of forms. But, for the filling-up-the-form-thingy to last the whole day, is a total nonsense. But that was just what happened on Wednesday. Of me feeling all tired and sick and having to sit my achy butt in a very cold hall for the whole day was just too much. But what other choices do I have. Gosh!!!

But I believe everything happened for a reason. Deep inside, I knew this was maybe my called. Though not exactly what I ever hope, but in one way or another, it happened so that my other ‘wishes’ can cut in the line. Hmmm. I story about this in other post. At 6 I arrived home all tired and achy and sleepy. What a day.

Thursday Diary

Today is the day that I tender my resignation. What shall the future hold for me? That, I have to wait. I am so tired and I don’t think I can focus for any serious stuff for today. For now I want to eat my jambu potong quietly while blog hopping my favorites blogs.

~love, annur~

What is your dream? Do you ever wonder what the impact of dream in your life is? Have it ever occur to you that dream is what inspire you and strive you to be better in whatever you are doing or at least to continue living? Is it true that life without dream is meaningless? What is dream actually?

I am not talking about ‘that’ kind of dream (images, sounds, thoughts and feelings experienced while sleeping). The dream that I want to write about is aspiration or hope. According to Wikipedia the Free Encyclopedia, “Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one’s life. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. ^[1] To hope is to wish for something with the expectation of the wish being fulfilled”. Therefore DREAM = ASPIRATION = HOPE. By now you should get the meaning of ‘dream’ already, I hope.

So again, I ask, what is your dream? Or perhaps the most appropriate question here, what is my dream?

Some people dreams to become an astronaut. Others dream to meet the right person in their life and live happily ever after. The truth is, according to me, your dream differ in a sense of priority in your life. If career comes first; your dream will surely be career-related. If you have all the luxury in life, more often than not, your dream is somehow refer to that one thing that money can’t buy; happiness.

What is my dream? Or shall I say dreams for I think I have many hopes in life that I long for to happen, in probably, once while I’m still living and breathing healthily. Hmm. Let me list down all my dreams, because maybe, then, I can ‘see’ that ONE DREAM, the ultimate dream of my life.

·         I dream to have the most beautiful wedding. Hehe. Lucu kan impian mcm ni. Semua org mmg impikan sebuah perkahwinan yang indah. Huh!! But I don’t care. That is my dream. And I am planning for it starting from….hhmmm…..once the date of the wedding is set. Hehehehehhe. I’ll most probably create one wedding diary for you, you and you….AND ME definitely….so my dream can be fulfill. Yehaaaa!!!!

·         I dream to save enough money to take my family for a vacation of the lifetime…our lifetime. Lebih kurang mcm percutian terhebat dalam hidup ni laa kononnya. Hehehehhe. Semua skali akan ku hangkut utk percutian ini. No excuses. Lalalalal. All expenses are on me. Perghhh!! Bestnyaaaa kalo jd realiti.

·         I dream to do all these adventures at least once, with my abe. Nak buat sorang2 mcm takut. Abe ada at least dpt motivate diri ni. Heheeh. And the adventures are;

i)                     Go bungee jumping at Niagara Falls.

ii)                   Climb gunung kinabalu.

iii)                  Go white water rafting

iv)                 Backpacking along ‘silk road’

v)                   Tour de-Australia. Keliling benua Australia with the love of my life.

That’s for now. I bet the list will continue growing so I have to start somewhere. So abe, for our honeymoon, jom kita daki Gunung kinabalu. Hehehehehhe. *wink wink*

·         I dream to build one big house for my family. My father once told me, that, when they gone (sob sob….sedey…), it will be an amanah for me to keep and make sure that all my siblings are together. Maksudnya, adalah menjadi amanah kepada saya untuk memastikan kami adik beradik akan selama2nya keep-in-touch and berkumpul, as a family…..therefore, it is my dream to build one big house, big enough for a family of ten (basic) + spouses + children. Kalo arr saya kaya dan byk duit. Hhmmmmmmm.

·         I dream to have my own big farm. Yes!! I think this is my ultimate dream. I DREAM TO HAVE A FARM OF MY OWN. I DREAM TO HAVE AN AGRICULTURE-RELATED BUSINESS. Saya mau menternak kambing, itik, lembu. Saya mau tanam sayur2an. Saya mau ada kilang memproses baja hasil tinjaan haiwan peliharaan saya. I WANT TO BE A SUCCESSFUL BUSINESS WOMAN. I WANT TO VENTURE INTO AGRICULTURAL BUSINESS. Fuh!! That’s something, don’t you think?

So, what should I do to achieve my dream? You should have good planning. Dream alone without any proper planning is meaningless also. And you got to have the CASH$$$. I think that is what I am lacking of right now. CASH$$$$.

That is the why darling, I join this competition. Do drop by to here. Maybe, maybe and maybe, who knows, this will be ‘THE’ step for you to achieve your own dream. And I have started mine. At least, I have started something. Right? For further detail, again, do drop by here ok….DO NOT FORGET TO VOTE FOR ME OK!!! YOUR VOTE WILL GET ME CLOSER TO MY DREAM. One day when I have successfully achieved my dream, saya belanja kambing sekor…or up to you, your choice of itik, lembu, kambing…..tapi bukan semua sekali yer. heheheheh…..find my balloon and vote for ‘MY DREAM…ANOR’S FARM… that’s the name of my balloon. fly fly high BIG BIG BALLOON OF MINE….may my dream comes true……

tata laling lalingku semua……teruskan bermimpi kerana mimpi itu memberi objektif tambahan dalam hidup anda. Hidup tanpa impian adalah BOSAN…..Abe, what is your dream? Tell me tell me.

~love, annur~

assalamualaikum dan hai….

saya adalah kusut sekarang. mcm2 benda main lari2 dlm kepala saya. saya rasa macam ada pertandingan jogathon dlm kepala ni sekarang. aduhaii….adoilaaa!!!!!!!!

mengapa saya kusut? kalo abe saya bc blog saya nanti, dia mesti cakap, “cik nor memang sejak azalinya kusut..bila masa nya yang cik nor tak kusut? kalo dia tak kusut, dia kalut, kalo tak kalut dia kelam kabut..”. huh!!!! abe, sampai hati ckp anor cenggitu.

saya nak menafikan dengan tak berapa keras (org selalu menafikan sekeras2nya…saya nafikan lembut sket) yang saya bukan la kusut sgt, dan bukanla kalut sgt dan takde la kelam kabut sgt. cumanya byk sgt benda main2 kat dlm kepala saya ni. kalo saya tak pikir, sapa lg nak pikir. (boleh terima tak alasan…??)

haishhh!!! apa sebab2 musabab yang membawa kepada kekusutan dalam kepala saya. mari saya senaraikan supaya bolehla kiranya sapa2 yang rasa baik hati dan berhati murni tolong kiraikan (macam kirai roti canai…) segala kekusutan ini. Saya akan belanja biskut raya…ok??

• saya takut kena posting kat sabah, sarawak, uganda atau negeri2 selain selangor…huhuhuhu. 29/10 ni saya kena lapor diri. gggrrrrrr!!! (terketar2). silalah sapa yg jd bos kompeni konstruksi besau2 offer saya keje…takmau tea lady, takmau drebar, takmau keje2 ngarut…(dah mintak tlg, byk songeh pulak. haishhhhh!!)
• apak saya sibuk suruh saya kawin cepat. oh ayahandaku yg tercinta, bukanla anakanda takmau kawin cepat2, cumanya tabung botol susu no. 3 anakanda belum la penuh sepenuhnya. aiyo ayah, saya ni satu apa pun lom sedia lg. kursus kawin pun lom pegi. huhuhuhu……ada sapa2 mau kongsi bekas jin aladin atau pun sudi pinjamkan jin utk membantu saya dlm persiapan perkahwinan yg belum siap atau rancang apa2 lg ini..amatla dialukan. sekali lg saya offer belanja kuih raya…lai lai lai
• setelah penat saya makan byk2 setiap hari sejak dr raya pertama, ada ke patut berat saya hanya naik 0.1kg sahaja…sila bc semula…0.1kg SAHAJA…hua!!!!!!! tlg arrr, org dah ingat saya simpan jin sbb saya mkn roti telur dan roti boom utk sarapan kemudian tapau kuih 2-3 bijik…huhuhuhu….saya adalah normal dlm proses penyahtinjaan ok..sila jgn pikir negatif cthnya saya byk mkn dan saya byk buang jugak…sistem penyahtinjaan saya adalah normal…
• saya byk bc buku citer…kebanyakannya buku citer omputih. akibatnya penulisan bahasa melayu saya agak hancur (tp penulisan bahasa inggeris saya jugak sama je kehancurannya). penahla satu ketika saya hampir membuat adik saya yang tingkatan 1 iteww dihukum rotan kat punggung sebabnya…..urinary system = sistem pengencingan…..jadi bila saya rasa ober konpiden, saya akan cuba menulis blog ini dalam bahasa melayu…sila bukak kamus dewan kalo tak paham…
• saya kekurangan kasut utk dipakai ke tempat kerja. juga kekurangan pakaian yang sesuai. baju kurung memangla berlambak2. tapi nya saya takmau ober interframe…nanti kalo ayu sgt ke tempat keje, org ramai nak orat saya (sila amik perhatian…saya mmg perasan)…haishhhh!!! zaman oratan sudah lama berlalu….bil kad kedit baru sampai semalam..maka terbantut la hasrat murni saya nak lalukan kad kedit saya dimesin kad kedit di kedai topshop midvalley itewww.
• bulan ni gaji saya kena potong 3 hari sbb amik unpaid leave. kompeni tempat saya kerja sekarang bernama SSP = suka suka potong……maksudnya bulan depan duit akaun bank saya akan kekurangan…eh silap..berkurangan…double haishhhh!!!!!!

ooo….sebelum terlupa..bulan depan bulan NOVEMBER…yer kawan2..bulan NOVEMBER…ada apa pada bulan NOVEMBER….hehehehheh..malu arr nak bgtau….nanti 1hb November saya bgtau yer…

saya mau sambung kusut…nak ditambah kepada kekusutan ini, saya lapau. dah nak dekat jam 12. masa utk makan…tata titi tutu

~anor yg kusut~

mak n ayah

abe

my dear friends. those who is not in the photo among others are; CIK WANG, PEJA, LEEN, YANA, SEPU, ANIM, NINA, REDZA…..to name a few. saya ni kwn tak ramai. tapi yg ada tuh arr yg plg dikasihi…huhuhu..saya bukanlaa kwn yg baik…tp kwn2 yg ada ni arr yg plg memahami….so to my buddies…i love you guys…soo much….i treasure u my friends…

adik beradikku…….

my books…these are some of it…..i LURVEEEEE READING…

William Shakespeare in one of his earlierst works, ‘Love’s Labour’s Lost’, wrote; And when LOVE speaks, the voice of all the gods make heaven drowsy with the harmony’.

It’s hard for me to find the right word to express the love in my hearts to those that i love…i heart…i treasure…

ANSWER TO A CHILD’S QUESTION

Do you ask what the birds say?

The sparrow, the dove, the linnet and thrush say,”I love and I love!”

In the winter they’re silent- the wind is so strong; What it says, i don’t know, but it sings a loud song.

But green leaves, and blossoms, and sunny warm weather,

And singing, and loving- all come back together

But the lark is so brimful of gladness and love,

the green fields below him, the blue sky above,

that he sings, and he sings; and for ever sings he-

“I LOVE MY LOVE, AND MY LOVE LOVES ME!”

Samuel Taylor Coleridge (1722-1834, b. England)

~love, annur~

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! geramnyerrr!!!!!!!!!!!!….gigit pensel…ngap ngap..nggeeeeee!!!!!!!…..makan kuih raya..ngap ngap ngap!!!…arrghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…..mengapakah?? why?why?why?

For Want of a Nail

For want of a nail the shoe was lost,

For want of a shoe the horse was lost,

For want of a horse the rider was lost,

For want of a rider the battle was lost,

For want of a battle the kingdom was lost,

And all for the want of a horseshoe nail.

This witty old nursery rhyme has a chastising note about it, explaining the consequences following a thoughtless act. Because of the references to horses, battles, kingdoms and riders, it is thought to have originated in England. Quoted from a book, ‘Great Poems’.

There Was a Little Girl

There was a little girl

Who had a little curl

Right in the middle of the forehead

When she was good

She was very, very good,

But when she was bad she was horrid.

(Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, 1807-82, b. USA)

ggrrrrr….i am horrid….dare come near me. i shall eat u alive…ngap ngap ngap..!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my happy family (ayah, mak, cikwi n kak ana takde dlm gambau). My siblings, their partners n mine. heheheh. i really2 love this photo. After a very tiring nite, yet still, we can smile a happy wide smile…say *smile…*

Still in the mood of raya. But raya 2008 will be marked as the last raya for me as bachelorette. Heheheh. Less than 9 months to go. A lot of things to be done. But no proper planning at all. Boleh ke gitu??? Haru haru.

Hmmm. How I would like my ‘majlis’ to be like? Let me think. Ok. Let see ‘my-list’;

       Guests should be only the closest relatives and friends (I prefer to have a small but memorable ‘majlis’. Say about 500 guests. (Tp org2 wajib hadir kerana KETIDAKHADIRAN TIADA MAAF ialah cik siti wan kembang, leen, peja, luthfi, ‘adik2 saya’ , to name a few . WAJIB ok!!! Hehehehhe.)

       Satu majlis sekali harung. Nikah n bersanding sekali. (That way I don’t have to change outfit 2-3 times. Leceh don’t u think?? And jimat summore…lalalala)

       The majlis preferably after Maghrib. Night time.(atas arahan apak kesayangan saya. Sbbnya kalo buat lepas zuhor, pengantin selalunya akan ‘terlepas’ semayang zuhor. Betul jugak tu…kan? kan? Kan?)

       The venue is in front of my parent’s house. Takmau dewan kalo boleh. I really hope my parents can consider that. And how I really hope my neighbour can be considerate about it.

       I really really really wish that my dear friend’s peja and his band ‘DEEPSET’ can play during my majlis. Ooo, before I forgot, DEEPSET is a new rising independent Malaysia’s band. They are instrumental band and they are EXTREMELY TALENTED AND HOT!!!!! Ouchhh!!! Hot stuff!! U can trust me on this. I am really2 into guitar. I think that guitar is the sexiest, bestest and most romantic musical instrument ever invented. And I really2 wish that during my ‘majlis’, I can have someone playing acoustic guitar just for me….oh!!! so romantic.

       I want a thousand of roses during my ‘majlis’. Real roses. I want my majlis to be sweet, in a sense of the memory and the smell. Hahahahahhaha. Majlis ku nanti hendaklah penuh dgn bunga2 ros. If possible, I want all my guests to receive one rose each. Perghhhh!!! Romantika di amuk.

       I want an all white wedding. From my wedding gown to the pelamin and deco….all must be in white. Maybe with a hint of soft baby blue colour. It does not have to be extravagant. I’m a minimalist. Keep it simple; as simple as possible, but no simpler (Albert Einstein). I’m going to show u a sample of what my wedding gown should look like *wink wink*.

       One thing for sure, I’m going to be a bit fussy about the catering services. I prefer my guest to be served with nasi beriani gam. Hhmmm. The food and the services are partially important for my ‘majlis’. Saya takmau cakap2 belakang makanan masa majlis saya tak besh. I want my guests to come and enjoy the ‘majlis’. I want them to be satisfied and comfortable while in my ‘majlis’.

       I wish my ‘majlis’ can run the way I want it to be. After all, it is one in a lifetime event. Hhmmmm. It every girls dream and this is my dream.

Tak abis lg ni citer pasal my dream ‘majlis’. Heheheheh. For now, mari tgk gambaran2 my dream wedding gown…oh lalalala!!!!…

This should be in white….with a hint of other color..soft…nice and simple yet elegant…heheheh

a design by radzuan radziwill……cantikkan??

Setakat ni tuh jer arr yg cantik di mata. In my opinion, your bridal wear is for you to keep, that is why I am not planning to ’sewa’ the baju pengantin. I will definately tempah, custom made for me. Supaya saya leh simpan ke anak cucu. InsyaAllah. Tht is my memory, to keep, to cherish and to share..

~to be continued~

~love, annur~

haha!! Today darling, I would like to ramble about handbag. If diamonds are a girl’s best friend (Marilyn Monroe songs), handbags, shoes, clothes are my best friends. LOL.

I can always do with a new handbag, or a new shoe, or new clothes…oh heaven!!! Everyday I just wish I have a new attire match together…setiap hari baru…hahhahhaa…beshnyerrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

But being me, even though I often shops for new stuff almost every months, believe it or not, what I wear, be it shoe or pants or jeans or even blouse are mostly of the same, worn repetitively for different occasion. Talk about comfort and favourites. hehehehe. yang lain2 nya kira wakaf je dlm almari tu… (Saya ada 5 adik perempuan…that is the why laa tak pernah nya cukup apa yg saya beli…)

last month alone I bought 2 COACH items (a handbag for my mom n a pouch for my sister), 1 Jessica Simpson handbag also for my sister, a vintage handbag also for my sister, teal bag for my sister sum more and last but not least…… (Saya punya yg last skali saya beli, lebey kurang mcm impulse buy la, I came, I saw, I like, I grab I pay… tp saya tak regret n saya sgt suka pun)…a topshop handbag for me. hahahahahahha. It took me 2 months solid of frequenting those sales blogs online but at the end I end up buying handbag dr top shop. hehehehehhe.

I can always do with free handbag you know. heheheh. besday saya pon tak lama lg. (hint hint hint)…talk about free handbag, yesterday I came across this website offering free handbag for every hour of the day, one day only. Maksudnya, sehari ada 24 jam, setiap jam satu beg free utk mereka2 yg sgt beruntung… (Oh god!! Let it be me…please please please…..I so need new handbag. For my new job…oh please…)

So ladies, feel free to visit this website will you, and who knows, just who knows…maybe you will be one of the lucky girl to receive that new handbag of your choice. After that you can thank me for introducing you to that website…. (Hadiah besday pun had ok…heheheheheh)

I can continue write about handbag the whole day, 24/7. I don’t know why, but I will get so excited just by looking at lovely handbag, or shoe, or clothes. Doesn’t mind if I don’t have the willpower (money $$$$) to buy them, but just by looking at them will make my day. Huhuhuhu. Seriously. That is why I can spend most of my time online visiting sales blogs. Heaven!!!! So girls, ladies out there, if you happen to come across my blog, and if you happen to read this gibberish, DO VISIT THIS WEBSITE WILL YA!!! Never say never, and we shall always look forward for promising rewards like this. Hehehehehheheeh. Tell me who doesn’t like free stuff. Tell me tell me. Then maybe I can spank them and lecture them ‘nicely’….or maybe give them some dosage of the pleasure of shopping or even window shopping/online shopping.

till then, this is my choice of ‘the handbag’..hehehehhe..sila cop yg lain ok..saya punya adalah yg ini!!!

Eh!!! I totally forgot. Which one that I choose. aiyoo!!! Or maybe this one…

huhuhu. I am clueless. I forgot ‘the handbag’….’my handbag’…or perhaps this one…

Seriously. I have totally forgotten. It must be this one…oh!! Maybe maybe…

Short term memory loss. Or maybe too excited. byk sgt mkn lemang pun ye jugak ni. heheeh. Whatever it is, ONE OF THE HANDBAG WILL BE MINE….hahahahahahahahahahahahha

~love, annur`

when i’m writing this post….saya lom mandi lg sejak dr balik kije td. sampai je umah, cr card reader and wayar nak transfer gambau dr kamera and handphone…terus on laptop sbb nak update blog…heheheh…buruk perangai kan?…dun wori, saya ‘mc’ hari ni…so takleh solat…ahaks..

so, just wanna share with u, yesterday i received a surprise of my life….sungguh!!! sangat2 mengejutkan. ceriteranya begini…

semalam hari isnin 6/10/2008 di hari raya ke6…sedang saya buat2 busy kat opis, encik abe call saya

abe: nor, cepat bukak website spa…

me: napa?…abe lepas yer interview hari tu??

abe: pojie tak dapat. tapi nor dapat. cepat arr bukak…

me: eleh….abe wat lawak hari senin yer….abe dapat ke tak ni?

abe: eh dia ni…tak percaya laks dia. gi arr bukak website tu. nor dapat arr…

me: heheh..pandai abe wat lawak. ye ar nanti anor tgk….

tuuuttt tuuttt…talian pun terputus…

saya pun dgn penuh malas terus arr bukak laman web ni…http://www.spa.gov.my….masuk no i.c saya…dan….

SURPRISE….TAHNIAH!!!ANDA BERJAYA. SURAT TAWARAN TELAH DIKELUARKAN OLEH KEMENTERIAN ….bla bla bla….sekian sekian sekian…..

i was like….huh!!!! what..i close the website..i reopen it back…i retype my ic no..and the same thing appeared..still, i was like…ish ish..salah kot ni..i repeat the whole process few times more….then i call yana n intan…..they witnessed it…i got the post!!!….that i never dream of getting…seriously..at that time i was like speechless…terkedu…langsung takde perasaan..blur….because i never expect this to come my way..seriously…never in my dream…

if you remember the previous post ‘about interview (screw up!! bigtime).., you sure know that this ’surprise’ is the last thing on earth that i expect to get..the least expected. then u will understand my reaction…terkejut giler!!!! it is not that i’m not being grateful….i am thankful enough, sgt sgt bersyukur atas rezeki yg tak disangka ini…it is just i am not prepare for this ’surprise’…huhuhuhu..

the whole day yesterday…i was clueless…blur…i don’t kow how to react. better yet, i don’t know what i should do. should i accept it??..should i reject it??…what should i do??..when everyone around me was congratulating me…i sunk deep in my own feeling…indecisive..my mum’s, she was soo happy…“hari2 mak doa utk anor…alhamdulillah…”….my colleagues, they envy me…because they said that this is an opportunity of a life time….

hhmmm….ok, can you, you and you…..those few that read this blog, or happen to read this post…help me?…give me your opinion,please…..

• what do you think of working with a government?
• ..if u r in my shoes, will you accept the offer?…

you sure wonder, why am i making such a big fuss about this??….ini adalah kerana, saya selalu bersedia utk sesuatu perkara..tapi kejutan ini,….saya tak pernah mimpikan….dan saya tak tau apa yg perlu saya harapkan..saya tak bersedia…saya terkejut…

yes, i am actively seeking for a better career opportunity now. yes, i should be grateful because this can be consider as better career opportunity…hhmmm..saya takmau jd seorg yg tak bersyukur..it just, i don’t know what to expect and what should expect from this…

huhu….till i get my hand on the offer letter…i will hold my decision….hhmmm…i pray to ALLAH the almighty…if this is the qada n qadar u have set for me…than i accept it as it is…if there is a better opportunity open for me….please guide me and lead me in making the best decision for me , my family and my future…amin…

for the first time in my life..i don’t know what i should do….

i am lucky for i have my abe and my friends to support me….your opinion matters to me…sometimes, things happen when u least expect it…and it happened to me…

~love, annur~